i haven't blogged in forever

Like i just wrote, i haven't blogged in forever; and sadly like the last one i did post, this will be out of anger/hatred/sadness..
I haven't had school since Wednesday, and felt as if this long break for Veterans Day has been really nice.  I skipped school Monday because i was tired, so i had only Tuesday and Wednesday of school; but then again Wednesday was filled with pep-rally's and ceremonies; so Tuesday was basically my school day this week.  I think i've been a bit better off with my sleeping habits, i've been getting in bed before 8, and getting to sleep before 8:30. Wednesday night, i ... I DONT EVEN WANT TO TALK ABOUT MY WEEKEND THATS SO BORING.!!!!

I just want to write abot how "world peace" will never be. A lot of my friends have to write a speech aout what they would do if they were elected president of the U.S, and one of them said "world peace." FIRST OF ALL THAT IS SUCH A BORAD TOPIC. World peace will never happen, and the topic is only tht you want to be prsident of the US not the fucking world. Get over it. People are never going to be completely civil to one another. It's taboo to even think that way. Unreal, nothing even a president could fix.. and that is perfectly fine. I think it's just the way the world works. If eveyone wa civil.. ew. It would be even more messy that way. And like i'm saying this is just what i think, and ince im part of the world.. it wont work because i don't agree.

Oh, and i also hate everyone in my school; basically. Which means i obviously dnt hate them, just i get upset with everythng. Facebook fucks with my mind, oddly enough. It needs to scatter. Or i could just stop.. but its like a bad addiction.  And ihate people in general that post their life on facebook, and post disgusting pictures. No one fuking likes you. YOURE NOT COOL. Oh oh, what else? I hate guys the fuck with your head. Which is most... mostmostmostmostmost. STOP. JUST STOP. You;re going to get fucking no where in life. I get you like sex... great for you; but we have fuckin brains too... and feelings and shit; but i guess that means absolutel nothing. Fuck you all. FUCK YYOOOOOOOOOU ALLLLLLL. My bestfriend is one of them. Fuck him. I dont really want to call him my bestfriend anymore, ut then like i'm going to talk about soon my "attachment" problems kick in.. and i want him there. I als hate girls. and 9 out of 10 times i wish i wasnt one. But then again. being a guy would suck. I saw Due date today and died laughing. I like good points in my life.
       I started again talking to my friend today. We didn't stop talking cause of a fight or anything, im not really sure why and it never really occured to me or anything. The simple point im trying to get across here though, is the fact i am such an attached person. When we didn't talk, i would daily think about him when things reminded me of him. Yeah, i missed the kid. Glad we could hold a small conversation today.

 I'm attached to everything that posts the least bit on interes to me. I think it's a selfish thing too. I think im at the point where i just cant let go of my "bestfriend" that i recently mentioned, because i dont want anyone else to take my spot, and fill in his life what i'm withdrawing. I wish someone would define love for me so i could prove to myself thats not what im feeling, but if life was that easy there would be no point in living it. Everything is too confusing. I sometimes wonder what it would be like if i just started over. If i could start over. If i had the chance to, would i? Well, that chance is impossible an won't come along, so i wont think too much about it, and save some thinking time for thoughts that are a but more realistic!
I'm so upset. I think. The same feeling i get once a week after i catch up on the "social life"...

good news.. i got myreport card; honor roll.